Showing posts from March 27, 2011


I have decided that I am insane. I have been battling my weight for years. Years!!!! And I really am sick and tired of it. I look at my husband who made some very organic changes and lost a ton (yes, he's a man and I'll never lose weight that easily but it couldn't hurt). I spend so much time focusing on what I should be doing that I rarely end up doing. Done. I am done with that. I have found that if I make to-do lists I tend to stick with them. I don't dwell so much on what I should be doing but more on what is on my list. If I sit and make the list in a rational moment, I put good things on there and get things done. So, in an effort to stop the insanity (ha! stolen) I am going to make a list every night of the things I want to do the next day. I will then stick to that list instead of sitting on my ass in front of the computer lamenting about what I should be doing or trying to decide what to do. So here goes today's list:

Workout  Done:  note of thing…

April 1st

Don't know why April Fool's Day even exists. Don't know why people would put aside an entire day to play practical jokes on people. Weird. I enjoy a good joke but the best ones are usually spontaneous, something that occurs to you right on the spot. Things that are planned generally don't go as expected. So I'll pass on the whole practical joke thing today thank you.

I didn't work out this morning because I went to the doctor. I had ear pain for a couple of days, then yesterday the pain started to spread down my neck and there is a little pain when I swallow. Since school starts again on Monday, I don't want to get sick over the weekend, so I went to the doc. Ummm, I feel stupid. Turns out it's a muscle in my neck. Which, when I think about it, makes total sense since my neck and upper back were bothering me last week. So there is nothing wrong with my ear, yea!!! However, when I mentioned how I had been sick on and off since D…

My husband is losing weight

When we moved into this house a year ago, my husband starting losing weight.  He lost about 10-15 lbs.  We decided it was because we were so busy doing things around the house all the time.  I didn't lose any weight but I didn't say anything.  Now recently he's been losing again.  Another 10-15 lbs.  At first I was really concerned, why is he suddenly losing weight?? When you are 60 years old these things go through your mind.  When I mentioned it to him, he had the same thoughts.  After talking about it through we realized he had changed some of his ways.  He was not drinking as much beer as he used to and he was not snacking as much (we are pretty sure these are related to our serious lack of funds).  Also, he's been taking breakfast and lunch to work with him and we don't go out to eat much anymore (see previous lack of funds).  Once we started really thinking about it and adding up all the changes he's made, we realized that he should be losing weight.  So…

The way it's been

One thing that makes me absolutely batsh*t crazy is when something is done because that's the way it's always been done. It's fine if there is a good reason to do something a certain way, but to do it just because that's the way it's always been done?!?!?!?! Please, get your head out of your butt.

Yesterday I was looking for something and stumbled across some blogs I have not read in a long time.   A loooonng time.  One of these folks were heavily involved in triathlon.  They did all kinds of stuff, lots of training and racing and were very, very active in the sport.  They had set a goal for themselves and worked long and hard to achieve it.  It was awesome and inspirational to "watch".  Once they achieved that goal though, they stopped. Just stopped.  Which is fine, if you set a goal and reach it, it's perfectly acceptable to move on to something else. I get it.  What I don't get is that sponsors and such continue to support this person.  How …


This is what I tend to do when I'm not sure how to handle something. In many areas of my life, when something comes up I don't know how to deal with I will seek out help. Sometime very aggressively. But in other areas I just do this. It's not good. Sticking you head in the sand does not help anything. It really doesn't. Trust me, I know.

So I avoid things that are difficult to deal with, but it bleeds over into other areas of my life. When I am actively avoiding something I start to develop an inertia that spreads. I will stop doing other things because whatever I'm avoiding is weighing too heavily on my mind and I can't seem to stop thinking about it. When I can't stop thinking about it I can't think of anything else. This leads to me wanting to crawl into a hole somewhere. Since I can't do that I generally spend too much time on the computer. Which I have been doing. Since it is much easier to control what is happening on my farm or isla…

Really, nothing to say

I actually do have quite a lot to say but nothing new. I'm tired of wanting. I need to stop wanting and start doing. I have so many things I want to do; run the half marathon in 3 weeks, do a triathlon again, run regularly, etc. But instead of doing any of these things I am eating like crap (though that's getting better), spending time on my ass right here, healing from stupid injuries. I'm sick of it. So today I have nothing to say and I'm going to focus on doing. Check back later if I find the time :)