02 December 2006

The stages.

I have very distinct stages I go through when under severe stress ( I guess I'd call it that).
The first stage is disbelief, this can't possibly be happening.
The second stage, is anger, white hot anger at any and all involved.
The third stage is depression, oh woe is me I'll never get out of this.
The fourth stage is calm, rationalization and planning.

If you missed my post yesterday (which I hope no one read and I've since deleted), the socialist state of California has decided to come after hubby and I for taxes we apparently owe from 16 years ago. After many phone calls to the franchise tax board and tearing through my records to see if I still had those tax returns (I don't), I've come to accept the fact that California has me over a barrel and I have absolutely no recourse. It's a long stupid (considering the people I'm dealing with, incredibly stupid) story that will just piss me off again if I go into.

I moved through all of the above stages. When I wrote my post yesterday I was in stage 2. Last night I was in stage 3 and very depressed. Today I've moved into stage 4 and need to figure a way out of this situation without killing someone.

Just a tiny rant: Taxes piss me off and they always have. It seems that the vast majority of the taxes I pay go to support programs I don't believe in or use and it really makes me crazy. Why the hell do I have to pay to support someone so they can have more babies and sit around on their fat asses getting fatter????? I had 1 child for many, many reasons, but one was that I quickly realized how expensive it was. I'm stopping there, I feel my blood pressure rising.

Moving on.

Something good has changed in my workouts. I'm inspired, eager to do it. I push myself and it feels great. I did weights yesterday morning and last night stopped on the way home to run (best cure for depression- run). I ran a 3 mile loop I do fairly regularly but did it 5 minutes faster than last time. I am getting stronger :)

Okay, that's all I have to say. I did aerobics this morning and felt just awesome. I need to shower and head out, I have some shopping to do. Sports Authority has my Asics on sale for $45.00 - woo hoo!!!!!

30 November 2006


It freaking freezing here!!!! I got up this morning and it was 70 F. That means it probably dropped into the upper 60's overnight. Yikes!!!!

Yeah, yeah, I know....... snow... blah...blah..... ice..... blah....blah..... raining...... temps in the 20's blah....blah..... blah......

If you look over at my profile, yeah, I don't live in those places. I live in Hawaii and therefore will whine like a baby when the temps fall below 80. Spoiled??? Absolutely!!!!!

Anyway, it's our first cold snap of the season and it's tough. I busted out the sweats and long sleeved shirts last night. It was extra blankets on the bed. When the alarm went off this morning I just couldn't do it. Well, also, I was really tired last night. Bone tired. Not sure what that's all about but thought a sleep in would be a good thing.

Okay, that's it. Inspite of the unreasonable cold weather, I must go to work. I'm such a trooper :)

29 November 2006


I'm really, really tired tonight.
I'm not sure why.
It didn't set in until I got home.
I'm going to bed.

28 November 2006


That's what I did this morning. I'm still not really "working" on anything, just swimming, having fun, trying different things, and just being comfortable in the water.

So I've been doing flipturns all the time. This serves a couple of purposes:
1) It's fun. I really like doing them and it makes me smile every time.
2) Doing this gives me more confidence in the water and this is what I really need.
3) Getting water up the nose once in a while helps me realize I probably won't drown from that (at least I haven't yet :)

Today I added fins again. This is fun, who doesn't like zooming down the lane; talk about feeling like a dolphin!!! I used them to make the swim more aerobic. Since I actually don't swim very fast, adding fins makes me go a lot faster and overall work harder. So I did some sprints, 50m on the 1:00. Yeah, we are talking fun!!!

I also got the Total Immersion tape for breaststroke and butterfly, so I worked on those drills for a little while. I breaststroke, poorly, and don't butterfly at all.

I ended up swimming for about 1 hour 10 minutes and really enjoyed it. I was bummed I had to get out and go to work.

I have realized that this time in the pool is helping me more than the drills and stuff were. I have issues with the swim and can freak out badly during the swim. I've discovered that I just need to get more comfortable in the water and that's what I'm doing. On Jan. 1st I'm starting my 30 swims in 30 days and I think that will be the icing on the cake as far as water comfort. Once I am completely comfortable and at home in the water it's then I will begin trying to improve my speed. I'm looking forward to it.

Okay, that's all. Rocco goes tonight to have his stitches removed. I'd like to get a run in too but I don't see that happening. Oh well, there's always tomorrow morning.

27 November 2006

Nothing to see here..

And nothing much to say.

It was Monday.


Nothing exciting....

Back to the grind....

26 November 2006


First off I think it should be a law that weekends are longer then the work week. Having 4 days off is sweet. I got a lot of little projects done around the house. Got a bunch of exercise in. Got some serious reading done. Nice, very nice.

Since I have been pushing myself quite hard these last couple of days, I decided today would be a rest day and tomorrow the serious work would begin. But, as is typical once I begin pushing myself, I sit here and feel like doing something. I'm thinking I'll just go for an early morning walk. My plantar is bothering me and tomorrow is my regular running day so I don't want to push it. Weights were yesterday and tomorrow so those are out. My bike has something wrong with it. And I've done all my tough aerobic tapes. I'm thinking a walk is where its at. I was reading somewhere the other day that one of the top runners uses walking to kind of squeeze in an extra run sometimes. Which makes sense as it's basically the same motion only many times walking is harder than running, at least for me.

Okay, rambling on trying to make up my mind. I think I'll go, I don't see why not it's only 7 a.m. Plenty of time to walk and still get everything done I want to today.

That's it, I'm off. Have a great Sunday all.

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