15 November 2008

This one is for me.....

Why is it so easy to fall back into old habits?? Why do I do things when I know they will make me feel like crap?? Why?? Why?? Why???

This morning I really feel like sh*t. Last night I ate a Moonpie, a strawberry muffin, a bag of dark chocolate M&Ms, and a lemon bar. Along with a tall iced coffee. And then I had dinner. I felt horrible last night and I feel even worse this morning. Why do I do this? I really, really don't understand. My weight has crept up slightly, only a couple of pounds, but I can feel the difference. I feel huge and bloated - constantly. My sleep is effected. I am constantly tired and last night I slept for 9.5 hours!!! Hello!! Who sleeps that long but a teenager. I have little energy to do anything and I hate feeling this way. The worst part is, I know it's directly related to what and how much I'm eating. I know it. Also, my lack of exercise.

I'm starting over today but I don't exactly understand why I do this and I think that's a large part of the battle. I need to know why I let myself fall back into these habits in order to stop them completely. So, not only do I start over today, I start questioning all my choices. Why I did or did not do something will be part of the process. Be prepared for it to get boring :)

14 November 2008

It all begins tomorrow

I've dilly-dallied all week long and now here we are on Friday night. Tomorrow is Saturday and it all begins again. I can't wait but I've been such a sloth lately I'm a little nervous about it all. It will be good to push myself.

Today I was like a walking stomach. I could not get enough food. I ate everything I brought with me and ended up stopping at 7-11 on the way home. Their iced coffee, Java something, is like crack. I love that stuff. It's my treat when I'm hungry and don't want to eat anything. Crack, I tell you, crack!!!

So I'll check back tomorrow and let you know how it went. Wish me luck!!

Well aren't I the genius!!!

You Scored an A

You got 10/10 questions correct.

It's pretty obvious that you don't make basic grammatical errors.

If anything, you're annoyed when people make simple mistakes on their blogs.

As far as people with bad grammar go, you know they're only human.

And it's humanity and its current condition that truly disturb you sometimes.

Actually, these are some of my pet peeves with the written word. When the wrong one of any of these is used it drives me crazy. I was taught as a child, and I still do it to this day, to break the contraction up to see which one to use. If it's the right one, then you can replace it with it is. Anyway, I love these silly tests :)

13 November 2008

New Year's 10k

Last night I looked around and I've decided to do the New Year's 10k. It's right around the corner from my house and it's a show up/sign up race. Not only have I decided to do it, I've decided to do it well. I have not been doing a lot of running but what I have been doing has taught me something. Somehow I got it into my head that I could only run slow. Now given, I'm not super speedy, but prior to this knowledge getting in I was running around 10 min/mile. That's not going to set any world records but it was pretty good for me. I'm not sure what happened or when it happened, but I got it into my head that I was slower than that. That's pure bull.

The last few times I went running, I've done intervals of 6 and 7 min/mile. Now I know I'm not that fast but I think that really shows that I'm faster than I think I am. So, last year I did this race in 1:22, about 13 min/mile. This year I'm going to do it in 1 hour, right around a 10 min/mile. I have just about 7 weeks until the race. I will have no problem getting the mileage up and I'm starting so low I should have no problem getting the time down either.

I feel good about this. I feel I have something to work towards. There is also a bike ride at the end of January, Sharon's Ride, that I'm thinking of doing. I'm going to add the bike back into the mix again since it really is my favorite part, and see how I do. I'll decide in a couple of weeks whether to enter or not.

Also, on the horizon, is the Great Aloha Run. I have done this every year for 11 years and I don't want to miss it this time since it may be my last one. Even though I do this race every year, somehow it sneaks up on me. This year I'm going to focus and train and break 1:30. I am!! I'm going to do it!!!

I'm excited about this. I realized that working out just to work out wasn't working for me. I need something to work towards in order to stay motivated and committed to the work outs. Did that make any sense???? So it all begins Saturday morning and I can't wait. I still have a few things to work out in the schedule, I need to get some strength training in, so I'll work on that today and tomorrow and Saturday it all begins.

12 November 2008


For a while now I've felt like I was just drifting. In other areas of my life I have goals and plans to reach those goals and things are going well. As far as my workouts have been going, it hasn't been good. I've had no real goals to work towards and as a result I haven't been as focused or as committed as I would like to be.

Today I was cruising the blogosphere and came across some triathlon blogs. As I was reading them I realized that's what I want. I want to have a race to train for and something to work towards. I'm not sure exactly what I want to train for but I'm definitely going to start looking around. I will have to find some races to work towards. I'm basically starting at ground zero so it should be an interesting journey. This weekend will be spent searching for a race I want to do. I guess it's better than looking for Austin resumes. So I'm excited and looking forward to having a fitness goal.

11 November 2008

Back to me :)

I wanted to leave the previous post at the top most of the day because I really like it. Many have given their lives in order to defend our freedom. Many have given their time and all they had. I thank them all.

But, yea, back to me. So I've been focused on my eating for the last couple of days. Sunday I fasted, well, actually from Saturday dinner until Sunday dinner, and I felt fabulous!!!! I drank gallons of water and just felt energetic and awake. It was great. Yesterday eating was really good too. I have it all logged into a spreadsheet but it's on my laptop so I can't quote numbers. Today is okay so far except lunch did not agree with my stomach. I had a Healthy Choice soup and some egg salad in a Flatout wrap. My stomach feels icky now. If it doesn't get better I'll go really light for dinner. I'm only planning on a salad and some salmon anyway, that shouldn't bother me too much. Anyway, feeling good and eating light :)

I haven't been working out though. On Sunday I wanted to get all my chores done before the bird club meeting. That way I could just come home and relax the rest of the day, which I did. Yesterday morning I just did not hear the alarm. I woke at 5:45. That's way too late to exercise with the zoo I have. Then it happened again today, I didn't hear the alarm and woke at 5:45. I did do some strength training last night and I'm going to do some ab work tonight. I'm not going to get crazy about it. The waking up early will come back, it always does.

Okay, that about catches me up to today. I don't have school tonight (yea!!) because of the holiday, but I should get some school work done.

Thank You!!!

Veterans come in all shapes and sizes!!!

10 November 2008

Okay, comments fixed

It was weird, the comments wouldn't come up below the post. I had to set it so a new page opens for the comments. Annoying, but I really, really like this theme. I'll leave it for a while..


It looks like the comments are not working on this theme!! Grrrrr!!! I really like it too. Well, I will fix that tonight.

09 November 2008

I've been put in my place

This morning I was dragging around here feeling sorry for myself. I was whining about how hard things are. I'm having issues with my weight and food intake. I can't seem to find the time to get the exercise I want in. I've got so much going on and it's hard. Just hard.

I was cleaning house while conducting this whining in my head and I had my soaps on which is the typical Sunday routine. On All My Children on of the characters is in the military and due to be sent back to Iraq. Anyway, they did a scene with the heroes that have been injured in Iraq. They told their stories about getting injured, recovery, and their life now. It caught my attention and I stopped and watched. It made me realize what a baby I'm being. Yeah, things are hard, but I have all my limbs. It's not easy to lose weight but I don't have any major disabilities or medical problems. Particularly there was one guy who struck me. He's on the Semper Fi team. They do marathons and triathlons to raise money for the injured marines. Talk about a hero!!!

It's amazing how these things always come along just when you need a good swift kick in the butt. I stand humbled. My problems are nothing compared to them. I have nothing to whine about and have officially stopped. I am now off to thank my lucky stars for the fantastic life that I lead.

Okay, seriously, this time I mean it....

I'm sick and tired of feeling like a failure. Because I've got other things going on and I can't focus on my eating and exercise I feel like a failure. Enough of that. I've had it and I'm tired of it. Starting tomorrow it all changes. I'm fasting for the next 24 hours. I need that to give me a little jump start. So I ate dinner and that was it until dinner tomorrow. Then, next week Hubby will be working most nights for a special event and I stocked up on good stuff. Greek yogurt. Oh, oh, oh, that reminds me, have you guys tried this stuff??

It is full fat, but it's all natural. It only contains milk, cream, pectin, and active cultures. Holy crap this stuff is good. As I said, it's full fat but it is so good it's like eating dessert. You only need a little bit. It tastes incredible and well worth the calories. This and a little granola and I'm good to go for hours. Right, so I stocked up on this and fish for the week.

I'm also kicking up the exercise routine. I'm definitely getting up every morning and doing some cardio. I'm going to do some weight training at night. I've been wanting to do some working out at night but doing cardio at night just amps me up and I can't go to bed. I'm going to try weights and see how that works out.

Right now though, I'm off to bed. I have to get some sleep and get up and workout. Tomorrow this will be a food free zone.....

Monsoon season has arrived

and we got our first rain yesterday. Actually, it's still raining a little this morning. It wasn't a lot of rain, but it was rain....