11 June 2016

Today will be amazing

This is another thing I have to do, decide that the day will be amazing.

Woke this morning with a good attitude and feeling really good. Been up for about an hour and I'm getting ready to head out on my walk. Want to get it done before it gets really hot. Going to be productive today and get things done. So have a fabulous day.

After my walk: After I wrote this I headed out for my morning walk. My plan when I left was to do the college loop, which is a little over 2 miles. Takes me about 50 minutes to complete it. As I was doing the loop I started to notice a couple of things. First, for the last few months, within about 10-15 minutes of starting a walk, my hips and low back would begin to hurt. The pain would increase until it was about 8 on a scale of 10. I would then have to sit for a few minutes to relieve the pain. After that I was usually fine. That didn't happen today. I noticed that I had zero pain so I decided to keep walking. Instead of heading home after the college, I headed into town to Haiku Road and took that loop. I did start to feel some low back pain towards the end of my walk, but my hips never hurt. Another thing I noticed. I have been battling plantar for over a year now and I didn't get any heel pain until right near the end of my walk. I also noticed that my calves are feeling muscular - don't know what else to call it. I can feel the muscles in my calves getting tight as I walk and then loosening up the more I go. So, bottom line, today was an amazing, almost pain free walk, and I love it. I noticed something years ago that I think I had forgotten. As you get into shape, things hurt. My feet will hurt, my back will hurt, my legs, my arms, whatever. But things will hurt. As I get into more shape the hurt will go away and I will start to feel stronger. If I stop working out, things start to hurt again opposite of the way they hurt when I started working out. So if I started working out and my feet hurt, then my back hurt, then my calves hurt. If I stop working out my calves will hurt first, then my back, and then my feet. It is like my body is undoing all the good that was done to it. It's just been so long since I was in such bad shape that I had forgotten the progression. Needless to say, I'm feeling amazing.

10 June 2016

This is why I teach summer school

This was me today. Pretty much all day too. I did get up and go for a walk this morning, but after that I spent most of the time on the couch. This is why I teach summer school. Because if left to my own devices, I do nothing. Something has to change. I don't like being lazy. When I'm lazy I get nothing done and things just pile up around me. I don't want to be like that. When I'm lazy, I feel fat. Like I do now. Because sitting around doing nothing does not promote muscle growth. I have got to change something. This happens every single time I have a break of any kind. You would think that by now I have it mastered, but I don't. It's something I struggle with every time. I need to keep moving. I spent so much time on the couch today, my neck is sore. That's just crazy. I think I just need to create a to-do list at night for the next day. That way I have a list of things to do and don't spend so much time on the couch. Ugh!!!! Why??? Why???? Why?????

After typing this I got out my bujo journal (which I have not touched in about 4 weeks) and updated it. I set it up for tomorrow. I made a to-do list and I filled in the June items that need to be done. I also made a master to-do list for the move. So now I have a plan for tomorrow. This is just something I need to do. I need to sit down every night and plan for the next day. I cannot leave it until morning because then I will not have a plan and nothing will get done. I need to know what I'm doing and have a task list to complete. I just have to accept that this is something I have to do every single day. I cannot just let things happen. I have to plan. I have to. Yes, I know I keep repeating that, because deep down I don't believe I'm that type of person. I feel like I'm the type of person who goes with the flow. But I think things have changed over the years. I used to be like that, but not anymore. It is too easy for me to just end up doing nothing. When I have a lot to do, I freeze. I usually do that when I'm feeling down and there are things I don't want to do. But this time it is happening with something I want to do. I guess it is just a way I react when I have a lot to do. So now that I know that and have accepted it, I need to accept that I need to create to-do lists to get things done. My lists to not have to be monstrous and take all day to complete, but I have to have some things to do. There can still be time for napping and relaxing. Okay, I really do feel better. I really think that having so much to do just messes with my mind far too much. So, in order to keep things in order and to keep us moving forward, I need to spend 10 minutes every night creating a list and planning for the next day.

It is amazing how much better I feel when I have a little control. I cannot let life just happen to me, I must be the captain of my ship.

08 June 2016

Progress in 2 days....

So 2 days ago, I called myself out on my BS. Sometimes I need to do that in order to make forward progress. Well, it helped. Yesterday I got up and walked. I walked for an hour and half. I covered almost 3 miles. I went shopping at Ross's. It was amazing. I also walked the dogs yesterday for the standard 1.5 hours. That was great. Today I got up and walked. I walked for almost 2 hours and covered 3.35 miles. In the middle of that, I stopped at 24 hours fitness and did 20 minutes of intervals on the bike. I also stopped at Ross's and did some shopping (have to cut that part out) and went to Starbucks for breakfast. I will be walking the dogs again today, not sure if I'll be alone or with Hubby, but walk them I will.

Yesterday I also managed not to eat a bunch of crap. Yay me!!! I did have some donut holes after dinner, but that was it for junk. I'm so pleased and proud of myself. Now I have to go take a shower and then I'm heading to Kailua to look for some luggage at Goodwill. I may pick up a salad at Aloha Salads, I haven't had them in a couple of years.

Sometimes a good as* kicking is just what I need.

06 June 2016

I call bullsh*t

on my excuses. I have been using all kinds of horrible, terrible, lousy excuses and I need to call bs on them. Let's see if I can list some of them and then debunk them:

1. it's too hot. Really???? Think this is hot? Wait till we get to Arizona where they have had 117 - 112 - 111 etc. Yeah, that's freaking hot.
2. it's raining. I love the freaking rain. As long as it's not a torrential downpour, I love walking in the rain.
3. it's too early. Oh shut up!!!
4. it's too late. When exactly is it too late? 2 pm? 3 pm? when????? It's too late when you die.
5. I don't feel like it. Just GTF over yourself and do it.
5. My foot hurts. See #5 and GTFO yourself.....

See, they are not even close to being good excuses. They are lousy and I know they are lousy when I say them to myself. Ugh!!!! So that's over. I have nothing to really do during the day and I end up bored, so I'm going to exercise. Walk in the mornings. Maybe do a little bodyweight WOD in the afternoon. There is no reason why I can't do that. I also need to walk the dogs. They haven't been walked for over a week because of heat/rain/personal problems and that's not fair to them. So tomorrow everything changes and I will just have to suck it up and do it. Tough love......

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