23 April 2008

Here comes the sun.....

Wow, do I feel awesome! Working out at this level really feels incredible. It's hard - very hard, but the way I feel after and for the rest of the day is totally worth it. Plus, I enjoy seeing if I can do better than I did last time. Doing a one minute sprint I like to see if I can go farther or faster in that time. It's fun to challenge myself. I have to admit that I haven't been able to get my 2 sessions a day in. I'm up early. Work out super hard for an hour. Work on my feet all day. By the time I get home at night I'm really tired. I've been falling asleep by 8:30 pm. So I've eased that up and decided to just adjust to this program. Once I'm used to it I'm sure I'll have more energy and will be able to add a 2nd workout in.

My revelation is so crystal clear to me and so eye opening. It's like putting new lighting in an old room :) I can now see that all those excuses I used over the years were my deep seated unbelief giving me an out. I have told myself I don't have time. I'm not ready to make the effort. I can do it whenever I want. I'm at the weight/shape I'm meant to be at. Any reason for not doing it was my deep, extremely well hidden, belief that I couldn't do it.

I love to sleep. I can sleep anytime, anywhere. I will sleep whenever I can. Getting out of bed was the hardest thing for me and the most common reason why I wouldn't workout in the morning. Oops, I overslept. I just couldn't get out of bed. Blah, blah, blah. Now, since my revelation, I wake up before the alarm. While I still don't relish getting out of bed, I do it gladly because I get to push myself beyond my limits. While I still would rather sleep, in a choice between sleep and working out, I now choose working out. It's just amazing to me that once I firmly believed it all the obstacles seemed to fall by the wayside. Not only do I believe I can do this, I know that I will and therefore it's not something I have to make time for, or squeeze in. It just works.

Okay, okay, I'm off my soapbox. I know I sound like a reformed smoker :) But it's one thing when you've had a thought pattern for most of your adult life and have managed to change it. It's unbelievable. It's kind of like you've had these chains on holding you down and suddenly the chains are gone. I really feel like I could do anything, or at least give it a hell of a try. I'm also kind of jealous of people who've never had this problem. I know a lot of you whose blogs I read have not had this doubt and fear weighing on you. I can tell because you sign up to do a half Ironman your first tri season, I would never have done that. Only know, my 4th year doing tris, am I considering, I mean really considering, a 70.3. I've talked about it before but I knew deep down inside that it was out of the question. Now, with a little more work, I just might be able to do this thing.

Alright, seriously, I have to get to work. Hope everyone has a fantastic day. I know I will :)

P.S. Today is Tax Freedom Day.... You have paid off your debt to the government and for the rest of the year you work for yourself. Doesn't that suck!!!

1 comment:

Michelle said...

Dude, pass me some of that power and strength! You sound so alive and self assured. Fabulous.

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