16 December 2008

The best laid plans

I had every intention of getting up and working out this morning. The knee is feeling pretty good, as long as I don't allow the back to get tight. I'm going to make a chiropractor appointment today, so I was feeling pretty confident that I was okay. The alarm went off and I just could not get out of bed. I wasn't sure what was wrong but something was. I rolled over and snoozed for a little while longer and still felt not right.

I finally got up and immediately found out what was wrong. Something I ate was bad. I spent 20 minutes in the bathroom before I could put coffee on. I have a bit of a headache and my stomach is a mess. So that was why I couldn't get out of bed, I just didn't feel it while I was laying down. Now I don't know if I can even go to work. This is terrible.

Between bathroom bouts I've been reading some blogs this morning. There seems to be a theme or thread running through them. I don't know if it's my mindset that's picking it up or if it's the time of year and people are going through the same things, but emotional/compulsive eating seems to be on every one's mind. Mine too. Due to some circumstances over the weekend, I found myself not being able to no to some food. Even when I was so full it hurt, I ate a little more. That is not good and it's a bad mental place for me to be. I know I can get out of that space but I'm going to need to work on it. Hard.

I guess emotional/compulsive eating will always be a part of my life. I use those 2 words interchangeably because they are, at least for me. I don't eat compulsively unless I'm emotional and all emotional eating is compulsive. Anyway, I guess that's something I'm stuck with and will have to deal with. I do know that certain things can set it off. If I have a sugary snack during the day the rest of the day will be nonstop eating. If I have that same snack at night it's okay. If I overeat at any meal I will continue to eat. I don't know what the connection is there. If I get really full I can't stop eating. If I eat until I'm just satisfied I can pass anything up. Hmmm..... Interesting.

I guess the good part is that I do know what most of my triggers are. I don't always avoid them, but I know what they are.

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