Starting to come back

That's one thing about my down moods, they don't really last that long. I woke this morning planning ways to fight my way out of it. I got a comment on the last post from the very lovely Vivica. She said, and I quote,

depression is anger turned inward

. I love that, and how true is it!! I am angry. I'm angry that things aren't working out the way I want them to. I'm angry that my work let me go instead of putting me on part time. I'm angry I haven't been able to find a job yet. I'm angry that I have to get a job. I'm angry that I have to worry about money like I am. It's true, I am angry. Do you know how freeing that is??

So I'm going to use this new found knowledge and anger and channel it toward the things I want. I want a job that pays well and is flexible enough to accommodate my schooling. I want a job that involves teaching in some capacity. I will channel this anger into good.

Right now I have to channel myself into the shower so I can get to school.