24 February 2009

I had a bit of a meltdown earlier

After my last post I headed off to school and really had a meltdown. I had to make a presentation to class of a chapter in our book. I had gotten my presentation together and it totally sucked. I really could not get my head around it and could not come up with anything creative at all. So it was this boring, dry, power point presentation. Blah!!

But before class I was sitting in the room alone and thinking that I feel like an impostor in my own life. I was getting ready to make a presentation that I know sucked. Tomorrow night I have my adolescent psychology class. You can not imagine how I am struggling with that class. I am not into psychology at all. I don't understand it and I have trouble wrapping my head around it. So I was thinking about that class and how I'm pretty much faking it. Then I started thinking about my new job and how I don't know what I'm doing and feel like a big fake. So I really started feeling like a complete impostor. I got pretty down and hard on myself.

But, as often happens, I got over it. I get down and low but it never lasts long. I got home from school and sat down and made a list of things to do for my classes for the next week. I've got all of tomorrows work done. Next week I have a presentation in both classes and a ton of reading to do. So I have a plan and I always work better with a plan. So I think my little meltdown is done and I can now move on with my life.

1 comment:

_ said...

Sorry to hear that you've been having a rough time lately...please let me know if there's any way I can help :)

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