02 April 2009

Strange mental place

I'm in a very strange place mentally. I'm waiting to hear if Nala has lymphoma as well as brain cancer. Not that it will make much difference. Her quality of life has deteriorated so much that, unless a miracle happens, I know we will have to put her down before the end of the month. That has put me in a very strange mental place. It feels like my future is rushing towards me. We are planning to move to Colorado after the dogs pass on. Well, with one facing the inevitable it sure feels like the future is just coming at me full tilt. I don't know if I'm ready. I don't now if I'll be able to handle it. I don't know how I'll deal with not having Nala around. She's been such a huge part of my life for the past 12 years. How can I go on without her. Wow, this is going to be harder then I thought.

I dropped off some pictures of her today, the tattoo guy is working up a tattoo for me. It will be two angel wings with a heart shaped center with her head in it. It will say Nala on top and 1997-2009 on bottom. I can't wait to see what he comes up with.


jana said...

I'm so sorry about your friend, Nala.

I can't even fathom the sorrow I will feel when Sloane T. Dog is not with me anymore. She has been my best friend for almost 10 years. She is still healthy and exuberant, but I know that time catches up to us all.

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