Want to vs should
I was thinking about the last time I was in really good shape. At that time I was running, swimming, biking, doing running races and triathlons. I felt really good physically but I was unhappy in most other aspects of my life. Now, when I think I really want to get back into racing and triathlons, I have a hard time keeping up a consistent workout schedule. Why??? I realized last night why. I'm really happy in other areas of my life and would rather be doing that stuff then working out. I would rather be working on what I have to do at school then get up and go running. I would rather spend some time looking for articles to try and focus my thesis rather then ride my bike. I would rather walk my dogs then run. So for me, and I think for others from the blogs I read, working out and training is a way to focus on something positive when other areas of your life are shit. Now this is not necessarily a bad thing. There are times in everyone's life when certain areas of it are just not working they way you want them to. So training is a bit of an escape. That's actually good because it gives you an outlet that can help you get through a rough patch. But I think I'm at a point where I don't have the energy to work out as much because I'm directing my energies to other things. Unfortunately those things seem to involve a lot of sitting :( What I'm trying to say here is rather then continuing to beat myself up over what I should do, I'm going to focus on eating healthy, and doing the things I really want to do. I know that in time it will come back around I'm just not going to flog myself for not doing it right this minute. I also know that it may come back around day to day. I may not want to workout today but I might tomorrow. I just need to keep an eye on my weight. I may have to look for some phentermine without prescription and take it carefully so I don't blow up like a balloon....So now I'm going to go shower and do a couple of things I've been wanting to do around here.