Why I'm not running

Every single month I say I'm going to start running at the beginning of the next month. And then I don't. So I say I'll start the following month. And then I don't. So I say.....you get the idea. I have not quite been able to figure out why I keep doing this. I love to run. I want to run. I mentally ready to run. Yet I don't. Every month I come up with all kinds of lame excuses. My constant one lately is that I need to lose weight before I can run. Hello!! I ran when I weighed 225 lbs!!! If I could run then I can run now. So what's stopping me? I honestly didn't know until I read a post the other day by another blogger.

When I started this whole journey I was 225 lbs and bound and determined to lose weight. I wanted to be a runner. That was one of my many motivations. I. Wanted. To. Run. So I started running. Initially I didn't know if I was an overpronator or underpronator I just ran. I did buy good shoes but not the best ones by far. I did great for a few years. I did a lot of running and I was started to get pretty good. The more I ran the more expensive shoes I went for. And now I started looking at things like stability and such. Then I started having problems. Sprained ankles. IT band. Plantar. One right after the other. It got so bad at one point that I would cry when I walked. I ended up going to a chiro to get fixed and he prescribed orthotics - which I got. Even after I felt better my running was just never the same. I could never figure out why that was. I felt great yet I didn't run as much. Why??? I think I just realized (reading someone else's story) that I am scared of injury. The last time I ran consistently I ended up in so much pain and I don't want that to happen again. I'm not sure what I'm going to do about it but as they say, knowledge is power...... Time to figure out what to do....