04 August 2011

Completely Exhausted

This is me. Completely and totally wiped out. That is exactly how I feel and I'm off to bed soon to try and fix it.

Why am I so tired? Let me try to articulate. I went back to school last Monday and have been at school every day for the last two weeks. Classes started last Thursday and tomorrow is the end of our first cycle. The first cycle of classes is rough. There are no routines or procedures in place. Everything is new and we, me and the students, are adjusting. Also during this time, class schedules change and adjust due to conflicts or errors that weren't caught initially. So since last Thursday things have been a little crazy. Also, I'm the junior class advisor which is new for me. I don't know what I'm doing and the junior class is a little notorious around school. They were the class last year with the worst, I mean absolutely rock bottom, spirit. The classes compete for spirit points by doing different things and this class last year would do nothing!!! It was sooooo annoying. So I'm in charge of that nightmare, though in their defense I will say they really seem to be stepping up to the plate this year. Of course, it is early :)

I am also in charge of the Aloha Show. This is weird on a number of levels. I have never done hula, know nothing about it, and know nothing about putting on a show like this. I am in charge of the court, which consists of princesses from every island and their respective attendants. Right - I know nothing. So yeah, me and another teacher are putting this on, at least she used to do hula. At this point this duty is not taking up a lot of time, but it is creating a whole lot of stress. I have to coordinate and motivate ~22 junior and senior girls. Oh fun!!!

Also, I am trying to finish my thesis. I want to get this finished by the end of the year. It means more money and it means I can apply to UH for the PhD program which will put off me paying on my student loans for awhile.

Finally, I am still working at Walgreens. I have worked 2 or 3 nights a week and the weekends. What is the problem you ask? Very little down time. All the above items, except the Walgreens job, require time for planning - of which I have none. This is creating an enormous amount of stress in my body which I believe is manifesting in a sharp, stabbing pain below my right shoulder blade. It is making it difficult to breath, reach for anything, and move in general. Also, I have not worked out since before school started. I feel like an absolute slug. The dogs are not getting walked regularly and they are not happy at all. When I am home I'm basically tired and get nothing done. I have walked around all day with a pounding headache, shooting pains in my shoulder/back, and zero energy. I have taken 2 naps and am just about ready for bed. OMG!!!

What is the solution? Well, the obvious one is to quit Walgreens and while that seems like a viable solution I'm not sure it's the right one. I believe things happen for a reason and I landed that Walgreens job so easily I think it was meant to be. Also, the money has helped considerably. If I could just come up with a way to replace that money without leaving the house. I'm in a conundrum. I am not sure what the best course of action is but I need to make a decision soon because I can not go on like this. I had tonight off but I'm supposed to work tomorrow night. I'm calling in extremely busy. I don't know what to do but I'll talk to Hubby tomorrow and we'll try to figure it out.

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