Let's talk numbers

I will look for excuses. Not in everything and not all the time, but sometimes I look for excuses as to why I can't do something. I've been struggling with my weight for the last few year (ya think??) and I've been so tired lately that I was seriously beginning to think there was something wrong. I was wondering if I was developing diabetes or my thyroid was on the whack or something. Now I've thought these things before and they never turned out to be true, but sure enough I fell back into thinking that again. While I am very, very much for personal responsibility I would like to find that something is out of my control every once in a while. I would just once love to be able to say there is nothing I can do about it. But, that is almost never the case.

A couple of weeks ago, on July 27th to be exact, I went to the doctor because my knee was killing me. i had sharp pain walking and using stairs. At that time the doctor wanted to do some blood tests because I haven't had them done in a couple of years. So I had them done knowing that I had a physical in a couple of weeks and I would have the results then. Seemed like a plan. So yesterday I had my physical and we went over the numbers. Bottom line, they are good. My HDL is 54, above 40 is good. My LDL is 120, below 130 is good. Thyroid normal, kidney normal, liver normal, everything good except my BMI. So even though I'm getting older and I may need to consider adult diapers at some point, I swear this leaking thing is not funny. But my BMI is not good. And the gospel truth is there is no reason for that.

So what exactly does this all mean? It's my fault and I need to get back on track. On the good side, when I went in on the 27th I weighed 197 and yesterday I weighed 192. So it's heading in the right direction. I do have to say I really haven't been doing much of anything. I have been watching what I eat and avoiding sweets - it's working.

Okay, it really is all up to me. Time to really get serious.