Realization

My plan is completely unsustainable and I need to revisit it. I awoke Monday and headed out to Crossfit. The first thing that should be noted is that I am not near as strong in the morning as I am in the afternoon. I have deadlifted 255#, but on Monday morning 175# was killing me. Also, I just can not push myself as hard in the mornings, at least at 5am. After Crossfit, I spent the day in agony. My feet and legs were killing me. Walking was such an effort it wasn't worth it. I came home on Monday and fell asleep on the couch for almost 2 hours. I had planned on walking the dogs, but since I could hardly walk, that just wasn't an option. I went to bed at 9pm and slept like a baby. The next morning, Tuesday, I got up at 5am and did my normal morning stuff, though I was still kind of tired. I couldn't decide what I wanted for lunch, so all I brought was cheese and salami. That was not enough. All day my feet hurt a bit, not near as bad as Monday, but still they were an issue. Also, I was sore. And I mean sore. I got home last night and did not feel like walking the dogs because of how sore I was. So I didn't. This morning I was supposed to go to Crossfit, but I decided last night that was not going to happen. I slept until 5:10am and woke up feeling pretty good. I got my breakfast ready and got ready for school and am now at school and still feeling pretty darn awesome. These three mornings have led me to a realization or dawning if you will. I cannot do it all. At least not at this point in time. I cannot get up at 4am for Crossfit, teach all day, and then walk the dogs at night. Since when I do that, everything suffers, I believe that is the thing I have to drop - at least for now. Because of the 5am Crossfit on Monday, I did absolutely nothing yesterday, and run the real risk of doing nothing for the rest of the week. Anything that has that much of an adverse effect on my life needs to stop. At least for now. So here's what I'm thinking. Give up on the 5am Crossfit for now. Focus on the weekend Crossfit and on my days off. Walk the dogs every night that I can. According to one leading weight loss expert, walking should be the main focus if you are trying to lose weight anyway. Okay, I can do that. So during the week I will focus on walking the dogs at night. This will allow me to function better at work, I am horrible when I'm in pain, and not feel guilty about not going. I can walk the dogs longer because I won't be in pain from Crossfit. The hope is that once I lose a little weight and get used to walking, I can add the 5am Crossfit back. I know that when I am thinner and in better shape, getting up at 5am and doing a hard, hard workout is not a problem. I think I'm just trying to do too much too soon. I'm in pretty good shape, but I need to lose some of this weight. So walking it is. Starting tonight, I will walk the dogs every chance I get. I can take them on fairly long walks, so that I end up walking for 90 minutes. That will be awesome. Whew, feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.