I have had some revelations today. I started watching my 600 lb life and it is an eye-opener. If there is anything that will convince you to lose weight, it is that show. But one of the shows really hit home with me. The woman was 500lbs and had convinced herself she couldn't walk. So she spent her life in bed. She got bypass surgery and then refused to follow the diet they gave her. 6 months after surgery she had gained 5 lbs. She was eating things and had convinced herself that she was doing everything right. She was in complete denial. That really hit home because I do that. I do that with food. I do that with my weight. I do that with money. I live in a fantasy world sometimes. And I've been living there lately. I stepped on the scale this morning because I start a diet bet tomorrow and I am 204.4. There is no justifying or explaining or whatever that number. I am over 200 lbs and that is something I swore I would never be again. So no more fantasy land, time to face reality.
I also realized that in order to be healthy I need to cook. That is something I had forgotten. I'm not really a cook, but I can do it and do it pretty well. When I'm really focused on losing weight and living healthy, I cook. That hit me again today. I have to get back into cooking. So I did, I cooked my lunch. It was under 400 calories and it was delicious.
So the takeaways today are, don't live in a fantasy land and cook.