So the last couple of days I've just been real with myself, but I've been avoiding all negative self-talk. I do say that I am fat, but I don't say it in a degrading, disgusted way like I used to. The fact of the matter is that I am fat. It's not good or bad; it's just what is. It's like saying someone is tall or short, it just is. I have actually been taking a page from my dogs. They don't care if they are fat or skinny, they are just happy. So I've been working on that this week. While I do need to lose some weight, I have realized that I can't come from a negative place. Negativity never gets good results. Every time I've lost significant weight in the past, I have been in a positive mindset. So working on the positivity.
The other thing I am working on is developing habits. I want the workout habit. I want the habit of working on my dissertation. I want the habit of keeping the house in order. I know that to-do lists work for me, so I am trying to cultivate daily to-do lists that will help me achieve my goals. The thing is, creating a working to-do list seems incredibly daunting. Maybe if I listed the things I wanted to get done during the week I could get a better overview of what needs to be done.
I just took a few moments to read some of FlyLady. She is a little crazy but has some really good ideas. I think I'm going to take her advice and start small. Taking on too much at once is a recipe for failure. So I'm going to start small. Instead of trying to lay out a week's worth of to-dos, I'm going to focus on developing one routine at a time. I am going to start with the evening routine because if I do things at night it sets up success for the next day. So, let's start there.
Clean up kitchen
Prepare lunch for next day
Gather all materials needed for next day
Review calendar and prep as necessary
Check bank accounts
Meditate for 10 minutes
Go to bed
I like this. It is not overpowering and it is many of the things I already do at night. It just adds a couple of details and is something I will do every night. Okay, I'm going to start here. I like this, a whole lot less pressure than I was putting on myself. I will do this for one week and check in next Sunday.