04 November 2016
Getting all real up in here
I have to be extremely truthful here. I procrastinate. I let my doubts and insecurities stop me from doing things. I let my fear rule my life. It has to stop now. I committed to something today that I don't know if I can sustain. I owed Walden some money and they threatened to kick me out. Ugh!!! So I called them and agreed to pay them but I'm not positive I can swing it every month. I guess I will just have to. What this has done though is make me realize that dragging my feet is costing me money. I have got to get on the ball and get this crap done. This quarter, I have worked on my dissertation exactly 1 week. 1!!!! Week!!!!! What the hell did I do the rest of the 10 weeks????? I don't know, I can't tell you. If I put in serious effort on this, I will have it done in no time at all. I just need to freaking do it. So, in an effort to not spend a ton of money that I don't have, I have got to buckle down and get this done. I really have no choice at all. I need to just do it. If I wrote steadily, I would have something to turn in every week. I would get the worst part done in a month. A. Month!!!!!!! I could just kick myself. I spend so, so much time doing nothing. I watch mindless TV or waste time scrolling facebook repeatedly. UGH!!!! I have got to stop this.
Okay, enough beating myself up. I have to get working on this and keep working on this all the time.