14 March 2017

LIfe goes on

I've come to love the "On this day" feature of Facebook. Especially when it is a time that something was happening. 7 years ago today we moved into the Kaneohe house. That was a crazy, crazy time. And it was an exciting, amazing time. We had bought our first house, something we never thought we'd be able to afford in Hawaii. It was awesome. Met some really nice people, Eddie and Ella who lived above us and the guy who lived down the street who did all the carving. Then we met some complete assholes, no names needed. We had some really good times and some not so good times there. For a long time it was a real struggle to make it, but we did. That house provided us with the means to make the mainland move and seriously, that made it all worth it. Life is so funny. I always think about what if...... What if we didn't buy that house? What if we didn't have those neighbors? What if we decided to move to the mainland earlier? What if..... I really am a firm believer that life works out the way it's supposed to, which may not be the way you want it to. I believe that we all have free will, but I also believe that we are drawn to certain paths in life. Following those paths makes life somewhat easy, life is never really easy. But fighting those forces leads to all kinds of problems in life. I see people who struggle constantly and I always wonder what kind of choices are they making? Seriously? I also see people who say there are no options, and that is never true. There are always options, but some are definitely better than others. Lord knows I have made some poor choices in my life, but I like to think I'm aware of what the universe is trying to tell me. So it all comes down to choices and to following the right path. It's not easy, but it is doable.

So today we are heading to Tombstone. I'm excited. I'm always excited to see areas I've only read about. I'm a bit of a history nerd, so this is awesome. The finance guy from the dealership called last night and said we need to stop by in the morning to sign some papers. Old habits die hard, and I immediately flipped into my, what if he's going to take the car back mode. I felt my blood pressure increase and my stomach get all knotted up. I had to stop and just breathe. I realized that it is absolutely ridiculous to think that. A) if it happens there is nothing I can do to stop it so why worry. B) if it happens, we will figure out a way around it. And C) they do not want to take this car back now, that's the last thing they want. So I took a few deep breaths and got over myself. So we need to make a trip slightly north before we start to head south.

That's really all I have to say today. I have realized that I did a whole lot of my worrying and freaking out here. I'm wondering how much I'll use it now that I have a newfound attitude? Maybe it will go back to what it started as,a health and fitness blog :)

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