06 October 2018

A serious choice to make



I am faced with a very serious decision. One that could theorectically impact my whole life. Pardon me while I talk my way through it.

A little over a year ago I started AltShift and it changed my life. For the first time in many, many years I felt good. Really, really good. I had energy. I wanted to do things. I was happier. Just everything improved. Plus I lost weight. Lots of weight. Things went along fine while I was in school and had a strict schedule. Once summer hit, things started to fall apart. I stopped walking as much. My sleep schedule got all screwed up and my eating became sloppier. Once I returned to school, I thought that I would get back on track. That hasn't exactly happened. I'm much better than I was during the summer, but things are still not back where they should be. 2 months ago, they had the final AltShift Activate and I joined that, but really didn't participate much as things were still crazy for me. Then he pulled back everything because he started a new program. This program is a lifetime membership and there are 'lessons', weekly calls, a Facebook group, etc. Basically all the support you could possibly want to make this lifestyle permanent. But that is the only way to access him now. Before he had forums and a couple of other ways to access him for help. No more. Only through this group and that's where he's going to be devoting his time, which makes perfect sense. I want to do this program. I know that I need the support and the help to make this a permanent part of my life. I really want to do this. But it costs $1,000. Now that is really not that much money. It's for lifetime membership and something I will always have. I paid $1,000 for my orthotics from the Good Feet store last year and do not regret one cent of that. It was worth every penny to make my feet, knees, back stop hurting. And I'm pretty sure that I will not regret this $1,000 either, it's just that spending that is quite a leap. I really want to do it and I think it will be important for me to get this, but I also don't want to waste $1,000. I know me and sometimes I can be a flake. I joined a dog training group and have only visited it once. Hello!!! $300 and I don't use it.  Ugh!!!! That's not completely wasted as I have access to it forever, but I'm not following it like I should be. Then I think that I'll be getting $2,000 on the 25th for volleyball. I was planning on spending it on Mavy's training, but I could spend some of it on myself. So I could charge it now and then pay the whole thing off in a couple of weeks. I could live with that. It's just the thought of spending $1,000 on myself in one chunk that kind of freaks me out. Of course, I spent $450 on Activate over the last year, but that was in little chunks. And $1,000 for lifetime access is really not that much. It's going up to $1,500 once they reach 100 people so in actuality I'm saving $500. I also know that I won't be able to get it under control myself. I'm facing 59 years of programming that I have to undo. That is going to take more than 1 year of work. It might even be a lifetime thing and I will need support every step of the way. So there it is. I really, really, really want to do this but I'm a little iffy about the money. Guess I need to give it a little more thought.

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