08 October 2018

Hard to take the leap

After my last post I was absolutely convinced that I was going to just jump on the AltShift thing. I had decided that $1,000 was not too much for my health and I was in. But all weekend I never sent the text that would start it. Everytime I thought about it, I had some excuse not to. And they were ridiculous excuses. But the more I thought about it, the more I seconded guessed myself. I know what to do and it's not that hard. I just need to do it. I did it for months and felt amazing, so it's not like it even makes me feel bad. Yes, the support would be amazing, but do I really need $1,000 worth of support? Will I need it forever? Will I reach a point where I can do it all by myself? Am I at that point already, but I've never given it a serious go? So I'm giving myself this week to get my act together. I know exactly what I need to do; walk, meditate, put foods in the right shift, and sleep. That's it. That's all I need to do. I can do that with my eyes closed. I will give myself this week. If, by the end of the week, I have not gotten my shit together, I will pay the money and join the group. But honestly, I know enough that I think I can do this on my own. So today will be Day 1.

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