18 January 2021

Equanimity

mental calmness, composure, and evenness of temper, especially in a difficult situation.


This is something I strive for in my life in general. I try not to let situations throw me. I try to remain calm and deal with situations as they come. But I'm still learning to do this.

Last Thursday the husband got sick. Really sick. Friday he felt a little better but still not great. Saturday he was still sick and the times being what they are, we decided to get him a Covid test. Well, turns out he has pneumonia. We still don't have the results from the Covid test, but I'm pretty sure it's positive. As a result of his illness, I am not allowed to go to work. That means that I have to have a sub, possibly for the whole week, and I have to have things that the sub can do. I don't want to miss school this week. I'm not sick and would much rather be at school working. But in the current world, that is just not possible. I thought I was handling it with equanimity, but in reality I wasn't. I have let the situation get to me and take away my motivation to do things. I have put off the laundry for 3 days. Not done any weekend cleaning at all. I have been working on my Johns Hopkins classes so I haven't been just sitting on my butt, but I have been letting things get to me. Time to shake it off and get on with my life. Things change all the time in life. Last week I was bemoaning the fact that we were still in school and not closed down. So now I get to stay home like I wanted and not be around that cesspool of germs. Always remember: 


Happiness = Reality - Expectations 

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