Manifesting what I want

 I've heard a couple of times over this weekend about manifesting what I want. You can't get/do/be something if you don't truly believe that you can. I've decided that is my ultimate problem. I don't truly believe that I'm good enough to have someone pay me for this stuff. So I need to change that. I need to believe in myself. I need to trust that I can do these things as well, if not better, than someone else. So it's time to put that into practice. I have kind of begun already by logging everything I am doing while trying to make these coaster things. But you know what? I don't really like those coaster things. If I was super honest, I would have to admit that is not what I want to make. I want to make suncatchers. Those coaster things are nice, but definitely not what I want to make. So maybe it's time to drop them, or put them aside, and work on what I really want to work on - suncatchers. I think it might be time to be honest with myself about what I want to do. I have got to stop following the crowd. I need to blaze my own path. So I'm not even going to finish the coasters I have started. I'm just stepping away and going back to what I love. I have started another thing - book valets. I have thought these things were so cool from the first time I saw them. I have made one and just need to put it together. Can't wait to see how it comes out. I have some ideas for those too, to make them my own. Going to work on that some. The bottom line is I have to be true to myself. I can't do things because others are doing it, it will show in my work. I have to do it because I truly love doing it - that will also show in my work. So time to face the truth of the situation. I can't force myself to do something because I think it will sell. I have to have a passion for it. 

Okay, that helps a lot. Sometimes I get so caught up in the trends that I lose sight of what I want to do. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I need to stop scrolling Facebook so much. I see all these things people are doing and while I think they are cool, they are not for me. I just need to stay in my lane and perfect the things that I do. 

Okay, off to clean up the resin and maybe start another suncatcher.