Doing hard things

 Lots of people stress the importance of doing hard things. They say it builds character and helps you build confidence in yourself. And it is true. I feel like a rockstar when I do something that was hard or big in my mind. When I finally tackle something that has been bothering me. I feel awesome. The problem is that hard things are a moving target and once you do a hard thing, say something you've been avoiding, things like that are no longer hard. For example, I've been avoiding getting my stuff up on Amazon handmade because I have imposters syndrome about the stuff I make. I don't feel I'm good enough and I feel like there are people a whole lot better than me at it. So I dragged my feet and pretended that I didn't know how to do it (I say pretended because Amazon literally walks you through it). When I finally got it up, I did feel like a rockstar. Now I want to list another thing and it's just a oh, well, get it up kind of thing. So now what is the next hard thing I do? 

Anyway, I was thinking about that this morning as I moved my meditation back outside. It was 54F and I decided that was warm enough to meditate outside. It was chilly but completely doable. And I love meditating outside. I love hearing the sounds of the world wake  up. And it was a little hard. Not super hard, but a little hard. But it felt so good that I was all in on it. 

Going to the gym is/was hard too. I have gone 4 days this week. 4 Days!!!!! That is something I have not done in years. YEARS!!!! And it feels really good. My muscles are sore but not painfully so. I feel like I have more energy but that could be in my head. I'm going again this morning and I'm looking forward to it.  So while I'm still at the point where I have to convince myself to go every time, I'm starting to enjoy it and soon it will no longer be hard. It will just be a habit. And then I will have to find another hard thing to tackle as far as my health goes. 

Okay, I think that's it for today. Just some meanderings of a mind in the early hours of a Saturday.