Step Away From the Cake

 I love to write here. I think I'd be good at writing a blog for my business. Maybe a once a week thing that I work on all week and post on Fridays. I know that I could promote them on Pinterest and probably get some traction there. In fact, I know I could promote everything on Pinterest and probably get some traction. Anyway, I'm thinking of doing that. The problem is, imposter syndrome. I feel like I'm not an expert at anything. I'm really still in the learning stages, of everything, so I don't feel comfortable telling people how to do things. Of course, I have watched numerous videos on how to do something and all kinds of people do it differently. Also, watching someone as they learn is not horrible. Listening to them as they talk it through is sometimes helpful to me, it gives me ideas. So I'm thinking that I need to start looking at long form content. I'm not good at short form - Instagram, Facebook, etc. But I can write and I can talk. So I'm thin...

 This week was so up and down and I'm not completely sure why. Monday I felt great. Had tons of energy and was in a great mood. Tuesday I was so tired I could hardly get through the day. Wednesday I felt good, like Monday. Yesterday was good but not as good as Monday. I did come home on Wednesday and go cut a design on my scroll saw - that was fun. Then yesterday when I came home I worked on some stained glass for awhile. That was really nice. Anyway, I'm not sure why my energy was up and down all week. I slept good. I ate the enough - made sure of that. And I was in a good mood. Not sure what's happening. Anyway, it's Friday so I no longer care.  Today I have an appointment with the Medicare person to change my Medicare. I gave it 2 years and I don't like the one I have so I'm done. Going to Medicare Advantage and just have everything paid for like the Hubby has. Done with that nonsense.  I just booked a tiny house for Veteran's Day in Flagstaff. It's a...

 So Monday was awesome. As I wrote, I felt great. I was not completely wiped out when I got home. I worked on my designs. Yeah, it was awesome. Then Tuesday I could hardly move. I was so completely exhausted by the end of the day, I could hardly keep my eyes open. Now a couple of things were different about Tuesday. First, instead of meditating I blogged here. Yes, I'm doing it again today because I need to see if it's a pattern. Then on Tuesdays I have 1st period free. I'm very caught up with my work and by the end of the period I was getting bored. So I'm thinking I could have been bored and that just dragged over into the rest of the day. Then yesterday, Wednesday, I felt great again. So a couple of thoughts. First, was the blogging the cause of the tiredness. I honestly don't think so. I do this fairly regularly and it really hasn't been an issue before. Second, was the fact that I sat for 90 minutes and ended up getting bored part of the problem? That is wh...

 I was not exhausted at the end of the day. I had energy when I came home to work on my designs. I wanted to actually cut something but I refrained because I didn't have that much time. But I worked until dinner. Then after dinner I sat on the couch and worked on my designs for a little bit. It was great. I went to bed tired but not exhausted and drained. In trying to figure out why I felt the way I did, I think I hit on something. I have been working very, very hard on getting on top of my lessons and keeping up with my grading. I really think that helps so much. I don't have those things weighing on my mind and so I don't feel drained at the end of the day. I just need to keep it up. Do not give in to the laziness of putting things off until later. Just do it. I have to go in this morning and work on some planning. But the bottom line is, as long as I stay on top of things I'm good. The cognitive dissonance is probably the biggest problem that I have. And that happens...

 I ended up not doing much work at all yesterday. Once I got showered and walked the dog I just really didn't feel like it. So I didn't. I watched some TV. I did the laundry. I went to the store. Watched some more TV. Yeah, just didn't do much of anything. It was kind of awesome. Towards the evening I did get inspired to create a geometric pattern. Which I cut on my laser and I'm going to glue it today. Actually I'm going to stain and glue it today. Well, stain it anyway. I need to figure out what colors to use. I'm honestly thinking of staining the whole thing the same color and just use that. Then put some oil on it when it's done. Maybe I'll do a flower design on top of it. A solid background would make sense then. Maybe I'll do that. Am I good enough to make flowers? Probably not yet, but guess what - I don't care. Oh, what about a nice walnut background and a flower in the corner? I have some nice corner flower designs that are rather intric...